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Kat. 20. Saggo. Aussie/Filo. The Future Mrs. Daniel Radcliffe. Loves Harry Potter. Steven. Roswell. Online friends. Fanbolt. Blogging. Hates You! Muah!
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April 13, 2004 || Get it Straight!
[Please don't be offended by this post. It is targeting a single person and if you truly know me and trust our friendship you won't take this to heart...most likely it's not about you but all you have to do is ask and I will answer truthfully, if you're insecure]
SomeONE has under-estimated what I am capable of and to them I am going to say SCREW YOU! If you think that I am not capable of being my own person, or being strong, or having the strength to make it in this world then you don't know me at all. You probably think that all I am is some daddy's little girl who gets spoiled by my mother [Carla this is not to you...don't freak]. Listen up. I can't help it if my parents can provide for me the things I want and I can't help it if they are willing to make sacrifices for me so that I will get a heads up in life. I can't help it that they have to show me their love for me. It's not perverted that my dad kisses me goodnight...he LOVES me. And I love him and I am not going to be ashamed of that and hide my affections for my father around you or anyone, it is not my fault you don't have that same relationship, don't make me feel embarrassed that I do have that with my father. My mother [as stated by Carla] treats me as an equal. I know I complain about being bossed around but she is my mother and I am still her daughter. And I will do anything for her, and I mean anything. My mother can speak to me about anything, any household problems and together we'll sort them out...I owe my mother my life, what makes you think that I should deny a few household chores [No it ain't to you too Julie]. You obviously do not understand the relationship with my mother, maybe coz you can't get along with yours and you can't blame me for that. You can't laugh at me or mock me or call me a maid, you don't know anything. I nearly lost my mother and it's opened my eyes to how much she means to me and how much I need her, I am aware that my mother will one day leave me and you know what? When that day comes I will have NO REGRETS! I have given my mother everything she could have ever wanted for a daughter...someone who loves her, someone she can talk to like a friend, someone who takes care of her when she's sick or tired or just wants a day to relax. Someone who will carry all her values to their children. Someone who will not forget her when she dies. You fucken don't know how it's like to have a mother like her. And I complain yes I do...I'm a freaken teenager but if you knew me, and obviously you don't...you will see my words don't been jack shit to what my heart says. And my brother, yes we're having some problems atm...but I love him too. At least it's not the same relationship you have with YOUR brother...if you call that a relationship. You don't think my brother realises everything I do for him? Of course he does. He is NOT stupid and don't you fucken call him that! He's just a guy and guys don't show affection.
I am not going to stop caring for my brother, or my family for that matter, because you don't. You can't blame me for your problems. And you can't expect me to care for your problems when its based on self-pity. No-one has a perfect life and I understand that yours may have been worse but self-pity is NOT the way to get friends. You can't base a friendship on that and you can't expect me to come crawling back to you after you practically ignore me all the time. I've tried...believe me I've tried to be a good friend but you make it so hard because you don't trust me. TRUST is so important and if you can't tell me the truth there is no point continuing anything.
And if you continue to be the know-it-all liar who thinks I can't make a decent living when I finish, then you can't blame me for my actions. Look at your life and see what you've accomplished before you judge me. And if you can't see that then you can fucken WOLF IT DOWN!
Posted by Kat at April 13, 2004 06:48 PM
