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July 13, 2004 || Get Over it!
Ok. I'm gonna rant coz frankly it's been a long time coming.
Breathe in...Breathe out Ok....ok....
Ok I don't have a boyfriend ok? It's MY choice. I choose not to dress up to impress boys. I'm no longer 13 yrs old and even back then I didn't give a crap what people thought of me.
And I don't have to be thin to be happy ok? I would be so happy if everyone would just stop pointing out how miserable I must be because I don't have a boyfriend. I don't care. I don't want to look for one. I don't want one right now in this moment in my life. Is that weird?
Well break out the news. Katherine Gonzaga has done something weird!
Whoop-de-doo! What a shocker!
A boyfriend right now, right here would seriously bring me down. I can see it already. A boyfriend would stop me from fulfilling my dreams, because my dreams mean leaving this place.
I'm not a freaken model...I know that but I'm healthy...Ok if I was overweight and having heart problems ok I'd do something about it. But I like the way I am. Sure I get frustrated that I can't wear tight things...but since when did I ever wear tight clothing anyway? I'm a conservative girl.
I don't show alot of skin and if I was thin it wouldn't change that.
I am happy ok?
I'm not miserable. I am not depressed.
But I get upset everytime people point out the points in my life which are, in their eyes, pathetic.
I think Simple Plan really captured what I'm feeling now through their song Perfect:
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that I'm all right
and you can't change me
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing last for ever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Posted by Kat at July 13, 2004 04:35 PM
