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Kat. 20. Saggo. Aussie/Filo. The Future Mrs. Daniel Radcliffe. Loves Harry Potter. Steven. Roswell. Online friends. Fanbolt. Blogging. Hates You! Muah!
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June 05, 2006 || Fag Hag
Ok I admit. I am completely smitten with Brian and Justin from Queer as Folk. I mean I always have been...and I don't know why I'm going back to my gay roots but here it is. I'm obsessed...maybe more so now that I've discovered a community where I can obsess over them and I am not shunned.
I swear if I was a guy - I would totally be gay. I kinda wish I was now...
Oh well - deal with the hand God has dealt me.
Anyways on a more serious note.
Its not hard for me to fall in love. Do I think I'm in love?
No.
But I have a feeling I'm getting there.
Is it one sided? Most probably...but...I don't know.
I have fantastic friends who push and prod - but most of the time I want them to leave me alone.
Why?
I'm OK with wallowing in self pity. It's my 'thing'. I'm not used to bringing people into my world. Especially if they know me sooo well - it's scary.
Yardley and Carla especially. Those two girls know me back to front, in and out. I mean I knew Yardley did - but Carla actually surprised me. I mean we've been best friends since we were 7 years old. But we've hardly had heart to heart talks (we have our moments - but when it's our own problems we both go to Ricalin I think)...so it really shocked me when I said I had a crush and in the next instant she knew who it was. It got me all warm and fuzzy to have someone like her around. I mean we're definitely not the mushy best friends (unlike Yardley and I who would have been lovers in a queer as folk world) - we're too straight for our own good. But Carla is the friend who will tell me how it is without giving me bullcrap.
Well I don't make sense and I don't really want to get into it. Which I think I already did...
Oh well...
I lvoe Steven. Hahahaha...to end on the note that I started with.
Posted by Kat at June 5, 2006 09:57 AM
